ANNA KARENINA
PART 63
PART EIGHT
Chapter 1
Almost two
months had passed. The hot summer was half over, but Sergey Ivanovitch was only
just preparing to leave Moscow.
Sergey
Ivanovitch’s life had not been uneventful during this time. A year ago he had
finished his book, the fruit of six years’ labor, “Sketch of a Survey of the
Principles and Forms of Government in Europe and Russia.” Several sections of
this book and its introduction had appeared in periodical publications, and
other parts had been read by Sergey Ivanovitch to persons of his circle, so
that the leading ideas of the work could not be completely novel to the public.
But still Sergey Ivanovitch had expected that on its appearance his book would
be sure to make a serious impression on society, and if it did not cause a
revolution in social science it would, at any rate, make a great stir in the
scientific world.
After the
most conscientious revision the book had last year been published, and had been
distributed among the booksellers.
Though he
asked no one about it, reluctantly and with feigned indifference answered his
friends’ inquiries as to how the book was going, and did not even inquire of
the booksellers how the book was selling, Sergey Ivanovitch was all on the
alert, with strained attention, watching for the first impression his book
would make in the world and in literature.
But a week
passed, a second, a third, and in society no impression whatever could be detected.
His friends who were specialists and savants, occasionally—unmistakably from
politeness—alluded to it. The rest of his acquaintances, not interested in a
book on a learned subject, did not talk of it at all. And society
generally—just now especially absorbed in other things—was absolutely
indifferent. In the press, too, for a whole month there was not a word about
his book.
Sergey
Ivanovitch had calculated to a nicety the time necessary for writing a review,
but a month passed, and a second, and still there was silence.
Only in
the Northern Beetle, in a comic article on the singer Drabanti, who had
lost his voice, there was a contemptuous allusion to Koznishev’s book,
suggesting that the book had been long ago seen through by everyone, and was a
subject of general ridicule.
At last in
the third month a critical article appeared in a serious review. Sergey
Ivanovitch knew the author of the article. He had met him once at Golubtsov’s.
The author
of the article was a young man, an invalid, very bold as a writer, but
extremely deficient in breeding and shy in personal relations.
In spite
of his absolute contempt for the author, it was with complete respect that
Sergey Ivanovitch set about reading the article. The article was awful.
The critic
had undoubtedly put an interpretation upon the book which could not possibly be
put on it. But he had selected quotations so adroitly that for people who had
not read the book (and obviously scarcely anyone had read it) it seemed
absolutely clear that the whole book was nothing but a medley of high-flown
phrases, not even—as suggested by marks of interrogation—used appropriately,
and that the author of the book was a person absolutely without knowledge of
the subject. And all this was so wittily done that Sergey Ivanovitch would not
have disowned such wit himself. But that was just what was so awful.
In spite
of the scrupulous conscientiousness with which Sergey Ivanovitch verified the
correctness of the critic’s arguments, he did not for a minute stop to ponder
over the faults and mistakes which were ridiculed; but unconsciously he began
immediately trying to recall every detail of his meeting and conversation with
the author of the article.
“Didn’t I
offend him in some way?” Sergey Ivanovitch wondered.
And
remembering that when they met he had corrected the young man about something
he had said that betrayed ignorance, Sergey Ivanovitch found the clue to
explain the article.
This
article was followed by a deadly silence about the book both in the press and
in conversation, and Sergey Ivanovitch saw that his six years’ task, toiled at
with such love and labor, had gone, leaving no trace.
Sergey
Ivanovitch’s position was still more difficult from the fact that, since he had
finished his book, he had had no more literary work to do, such as had hitherto
occupied the greater part of his time.
Sergey
Ivanovitch was clever, cultivated, healthy, and energetic, and he did not know
what use to make of his energy. Conversations in drawing-rooms, in meetings,
assemblies, and committees—everywhere where talk was possible—took up part of
his time. But being used for years to town life, he did not waste all his
energies in talk, as his less experienced younger brother did, when he was in
Moscow. He had a great deal of leisure and intellectual energy still to dispose
of.
Fortunately
for him, at this period so difficult for him from the failure of his book, the
various public questions of the dissenting sects, of the American alliance, of
the Samara famine, of exhibitions, and of spiritualism, were definitely
replaced in public interest by the Slavonic question, which had hitherto rather
languidly interested society, and Sergey Ivanovitch, who had been one of the
first to raise this subject, threw himself into it heart and soul.
In the
circle to which Sergey Ivanovitch belonged, nothing was talked of or written
about just now but the Servian War. Everything that the idle crowd usually does
to kill time was done now for the benefit of the Slavonic States. Balls,
concerts, dinners, matchboxes, ladies’ dresses, beer, restaurants—everything
testified to sympathy with the Slavonic peoples.
From much
of what was spoken and written on the subject, Sergey Ivanovitch differed on
various points. He saw that the Slavonic question had become one of those
fashionable distractions which succeed one another in providing society with an
object and an occupation. He saw, too, that a great many people were taking up
the subject from motives of self-interest and self-advertisement. He recognized
that the newspapers published a great deal that was superfluous and
exaggerated, with the sole aim of attracting attention and outbidding one
another. He saw that in this general movement those who thrust themselves most
forward and shouted the loudest were men who had failed and were smarting under
a sense of injury—generals without armies, ministers not in the ministry,
journalists not on any paper, party leaders without followers. He saw that
there was a great deal in it that was frivolous and absurd. But he saw and
recognized an unmistakable growing enthusiasm, uniting all classes, with which
it was impossible not to sympathize. The massacre of men who were fellow
Christians, and of the same Slavonic race, excited sympathy for the sufferers
and indignation against the oppressors. And the heroism of the Servians and
Montenegrins struggling for a great cause begot in the whole people a longing
to help their brothers not in word but in deed.
But in
this there was another aspect that rejoiced Sergey Ivanovitch. That was the
manifestation of public opinion. The public had definitely expressed its
desire. The soul of the people had, as Sergey Ivanovitch said, found
expression. And the more he worked in this cause, the more incontestable it
seemed to him that it was a cause destined to assume vast dimensions, to create
an epoch.
He threw
himself heart and soul into the service of this great cause, and forgot to
think about his book. His whole time now was engrossed by it, so that he could
scarcely manage to answer all the letters and appeals addressed to him. He
worked the whole spring and part of the summer, and it was only in July that he
prepared to go away to his brother’s in the country.
He was
going both to rest for a fortnight, and in the very heart of the people, in the
farthest wilds of the country, to enjoy the sight of that uplifting of the
spirit of the people, of which, like all residents in the capital and big
towns, he was fully persuaded. Katavasov had long been meaning to carry out his
promise to stay with Levin, and so he was going with him.
Chapter 2
Sergey
Ivanovitch and Katavasov had only just reached the station of the Kursk line,
which was particularly busy and full of people that day, when, looking round
for the groom who was following with their things, they saw a party of
volunteers driving up in four cabs. Ladies met them with bouquets of flowers,
and followed by the rushing crowd they went into the station.
One of the
ladies, who had met the volunteers, came out of the hall and addressed Sergey
Ivanovitch.
“You too
come to see them off?” she asked in French.
“No, I’m
going away myself, princess. To my brother’s for a holiday. Do you always see
them off?” said Sergey Ivanovitch with a hardly perceptible smile.
“Oh, that
would be impossible!” answered the princess. “Is it true that eight hundred
have been sent from us already? Malvinsky wouldn’t believe me.”
“More than
eight hundred. If you reckon those who have been sent not directly from Moscow,
over a thousand,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch.
“There!
That’s just what I said!” exclaimed the lady. “And it’s true too, I suppose,
that more than a million has been subscribed?”
“Yes,
princess.”
“What do
you say to today’s telegram? Beaten the Turks again.”
“Yes, so I
saw,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch. They were speaking of the last telegram
stating that the Turks had been for three days in succession beaten at all
points and put to flight, and that tomorrow a decisive engagement was expected.
“Ah, by
the way, a splendid young fellow has asked leave to go, and they’ve made some
difficulty, I don’t know why. I meant to ask you; I know him; please write a
note about his case. He’s being sent by Countess Lidia Ivanovna.”
Sergey
Ivanovitch asked for all the details the princess knew about the young man, and
going into the first-class waiting-room, wrote a note to the person on whom the
granting of leave of absence depended, and handed it to the princess.
“You know
Count Vronsky, the notorious one ... is going by this train?” said the princess
with a smile full of triumph and meaning, when he found her again and gave her
the letter.
“I had
heard he was going, but I did not know when. By this train?”
“I’ve seen
him. He’s here: there’s only his mother seeing him off. It’s the best thing,
anyway, that he could do.”
“Oh, yes,
of course.”
While they
were talking the crowd streamed by them into the dining-room. They went forward
too, and heard a gentleman with a glass in his hand delivering a loud discourse
to the volunteers. “In the service of religion, humanity, and our brothers,”
the gentleman said, his voice growing louder and louder; “to this great cause
mother Moscow dedicates you with her blessing. Jivio! he concluded,
loudly and tearfully.
Everyone
shouted Jivio! and a fresh crowd dashed into the hall, almost carrying
the princess off her legs.
“Ah,
princess! that was something like!” said Stepan Arkadyevitch, suddenly
appearing in the middle of the crowd and beaming upon them with a delighted
smile. “Capitally, warmly said, wasn’t it? Bravo! And Sergey Ivanovitch! Why,
you ought to have said something—just a few words, you know, to encourage them;
you do that so well,” he added with a soft, respectful, and discreet smile,
moving Sergey Ivanovitch forward a little by the arm.
“No, I’m
just off.”
“Where
to?”
“To the
country, to my brother’s,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch.
“Then
you’ll see my wife. I’ve written to her, but you’ll see her first. Please tell
her that they’ve seen me and that it’s ‘all right,’ as the English say. She’ll
understand. Oh, and be so good as to tell her I’m appointed secretary of the
committee.... But she’ll understand! You know, les petites misères de la vie
humaine,” he said, as it were apologizing to the princess. “And Princess
Myakaya—not Liza, but Bibish—is sending a thousand guns and twelve nurses. Did
I tell you?”
“Yes, I
heard so,” answered Koznishev indifferently.
“It’s a
pity you’re going away,” said Stepan Arkadyevitch. “Tomorrow we’re giving a
dinner to two who’re setting off—Dimer-Bartnyansky from Petersburg and our
Veslovsky, Grisha. They’re both going. Veslovsky’s only lately married. There’s
a fine fellow for you! Eh, princess?” he turned to the lady.
The
princess looked at Koznishev without replying. But the fact that Sergey
Ivanovitch and the princess seemed anxious to get rid of him did not in the least
disconcert Stepan Arkadyevitch. Smiling, he stared at the feather in the
princess’s hat, and then about him as though he were going to pick something
up. Seeing a lady approaching with a collecting box, he beckoned her up and put
in a five-rouble note.
“I can
never see these collecting boxes unmoved while I’ve money in my pocket,” he
said. “And how about today’s telegram? Fine chaps those Montenegrins!”
“You don’t
say so!” he cried, when the princess told him that Vronsky was going by this
train. For an instant Stepan Arkadyevitch’s face looked sad, but a minute
later, when, stroking his mustaches and swinging as he walked, he went into the
hall where Vronsky was, he had completely forgotten his own despairing sobs
over his sister’s corpse, and he saw in Vronsky only a hero and an old friend.
“With all
his faults one can’t refuse to do him justice,” said the princess to Sergey
Ivanovitch as soon as Stepan Arkadyevitch had left them. “What a typically
Russian, Slav nature! Only, I’m afraid it won’t be pleasant for Vronsky to see
him. Say what you will, I’m touched by that man’s fate. Do talk to him a little
on the way,” said the princess.
“Yes,
perhaps, if it happens so.”
“I never
liked him. But this atones for a great deal. He’s not merely going himself,
he’s taking a squadron at his own expense.”
“Yes, so I
heard.”
A bell
sounded. Everyone crowded to the doors. “Here he is!” said the princess,
indicating Vronsky, who with his mother on his arm walked by, wearing a long
overcoat and wide-brimmed black hat. Oblonsky was walking beside him, talking
eagerly of something.
Vronsky
was frowning and looking straight before him, as though he did not hear what
Stepan Arkadyevitch was saying.
Probably
on Oblonsky’s pointing them out, he looked round in the direction where the
princess and Sergey Ivanovitch were standing, and without speaking lifted his
hat. His face, aged and worn by suffering, looked stony.
Going onto
the platform, Vronsky left his mother and disappeared into a compartment.
On the
platform there rang out “God save the Tsar,” then shouts of “hurrah!” and “jivio!”
One of the volunteers, a tall, very young man with a hollow chest, was
particularly conspicuous, bowing and waving his felt hat and a nosegay over his
head. Then two officers emerged, bowing too, and a stout man with a big beard,
wearing a greasy forage cap.
Chapter 3
Saying
good-bye to the princess, Sergey Ivanovitch was joined by Katavasov; together
they got into a carriage full to overflowing, and the train started.
At
Tsaritsino station the train was met by a chorus of young men singing “Hail to
Thee!” Again the volunteers bowed and poked their heads out, but Sergey
Ivanovitch paid no attention to them. He had had so much to do with the
volunteers that the type was familiar to him and did not interest him.
Katavasov, whose scientific work had prevented his having a chance of observing
them hitherto, was very much interested in them and questioned Sergey
Ivanovitch.
Sergey
Ivanovitch advised him to go into the second-class and talk to them himself. At
the next station Katavasov acted on this suggestion.
At the
first stop he moved into the second-class and made the acquaintance of the
volunteers. They were sitting in a corner of the carriage, talking loudly and
obviously aware that the attention of the passengers and Katavasov as he got in
was concentrated upon them. More loudly than all talked the tall,
hollow-chested young man. He was unmistakably tipsy, and was relating some
story that had occurred at his school. Facing him sat a middle-aged officer in
the Austrian military jacket of the Guards uniform. He was listening with a
smile to the hollow-chested youth, and occasionally pulling him up. The third,
in an artillery uniform, was sitting on a box beside them. A fourth was asleep.
Entering
into conversation with the youth, Katavasov learned that he was a wealthy
Moscow merchant who had run through a large fortune before he was
two-and-twenty. Katavasov did not like him, because he was unmanly and
effeminate and sickly. He was obviously convinced, especially now after
drinking, that he was performing a heroic action, and he bragged of it in the
most unpleasant way.
The
second, the retired officer, made an unpleasant impression too upon Katavasov.
He was, it seemed, a man who had tried everything. He had been on a railway,
had been a land-steward, and had started factories, and he talked, quite
without necessity, of all he had done, and used learned expressions quite
inappropriately.
The third,
the artilleryman, on the contrary, struck Katavasov very favorably. He was a
quiet, modest fellow, unmistakably impressed by the knowledge of the officer
and the heroic self-sacrifice of the merchant and saying nothing about himself.
When Katavasov asked him what had impelled him to go to Servia, he answered
modestly:
“Oh, well,
everyone’s going. The Servians want help, too. I’m sorry for them.”
“Yes, you
artillerymen especially are scarce there,” said Katavasov.
“Oh, I
wasn’t long in the artillery, maybe they’ll put me into the infantry or the
cavalry.”
“Into the
infantry when they need artillery more than anything?” said Katavasov, fancying
from the artilleryman’s apparent age that he must have reached a fairly high
grade.
“I wasn’t
long in the artillery; I’m a cadet retired,” he said, and he began to explain
how he had failed in his examination.
All of
this together made a disagreeable impression on Katavasov, and when the
volunteers got out at a station for a drink, Katavasov would have liked to
compare his unfavorable impression in conversation with someone. There was an
old man in the carriage, wearing a military overcoat, who had been listening
all the while to Katavasov’s conversation with the volunteers. When they were
left alone, Katavasov addressed him.
“What
different positions they come from, all those fellows who are going off there,”
Katavasov said vaguely, not wishing to express his own opinion, and at the same
time anxious to find out the old man’s views.
The old
man was an officer who had served on two campaigns. He knew what makes a
soldier, and judging by the appearance and the talk of those persons, by the
swagger with which they had recourse to the bottle on the journey, he
considered them poor soldiers. Moreover, he lived in a district town, and he
was longing to tell how one soldier had volunteered from his town, a drunkard
and a thief whom no one would employ as a laborer. But knowing by experience
that in the present condition of the public temper it was dangerous to express
an opinion opposed to the general one, and especially to criticize the
volunteers unfavorably, he too watched Katavasov without committing himself.
“Well, men
are wanted there,” he said, laughing with his eyes. And they fell to talking of
the last war news, and each concealed from the other his perplexity as to the
engagement expected next day, since the Turks had been beaten, according to the
latest news, at all points. And so they parted, neither giving expression to
his opinion.
Katavasov
went back to his own carriage, and with reluctant hypocrisy reported to Sergey
Ivanovitch his observations of the volunteers, from which it would appear that
they were capital fellows.
At a big
station at a town the volunteers were again greeted with shouts and singing,
again men and women with collecting boxes appeared, and provincial ladies
brought bouquets to the volunteers and followed them into the refreshment room;
but all this was on a much smaller and feebler scale than in Moscow.
Chapter 4
While the
train was stopping at the provincial town, Sergey Ivanovitch did not go to the
refreshment room, but walked up and down the platform.
The first
time he passed Vronsky’s compartment he noticed that the curtain was drawn over
the window; but as he passed it the second time he saw the old countess at the
window. She beckoned to Koznishev.
“I’m
going, you see, taking him as far as Kursk,” she said.
“Yes, so I
heard,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, standing at her window and peeping in. “What a
noble act on his part!” he added, noticing that Vronsky was not in the
compartment.
“Yes,
after his misfortune, what was there for him to do?”
“What a
terrible thing it was!” said Sergey Ivanovitch.
“Ah, what
I have been through! But do get in.... Ah, what I have been through!” she
repeated, when Sergey Ivanovitch had got in and sat down beside her. “You can’t
conceive it! For six weeks he did not speak to anyone, and would not touch food
except when I implored him. And not for one minute could we leave him alone. We
took away everything he could have used against himself. We lived on the ground
floor, but there was no reckoning on anything. You know, of course, that he had
shot himself once already on her account,” she said, and the old lady’s
eyelashes twitched at the recollection. “Yes, hers was the fitting end for such
a woman. Even the death she chose was low and vulgar.”
“It’s not
for us to judge, countess,” said Sergey Ivanovitch; “but I can understand that
it has been very hard for you.”
“Ah, don’t
speak of it! I was staying on my estate, and he was with me. A note was brought
him. He wrote an answer and sent it off. We hadn’t an idea that she was close
by at the station. In the evening I had only just gone to my room, when my Mary
told me a lady had thrown herself under the train. Something seemed to strike
me at once. I knew it was she. The first thing I said was, he was not to be
told. But they’d told him already. His coachman was there and saw it all. When
I ran into his room, he was beside himself—it was fearful to see him. He didn’t
say a word, but galloped off there. I don’t know to this day what happened
there, but he was brought back at death’s door. I shouldn’t have known him. Prostration
complète, the doctor said. And that was followed almost by madness. Oh, why
talk of it!” said the countess with a wave of her hand. “It was an awful time!
No, say what you will, she was a bad woman. Why, what is the meaning of such
desperate passions? It was all to show herself something out of the way. Well,
and that she did do. She brought herself to ruin and two good men—her husband
and my unhappy son.”
“And what
did her husband do?” asked Sergey Ivanovitch.
“He has
taken her daughter. Alexey was ready to agree to anything at first. Now it
worries him terribly that he should have given his own child away to another
man. But he can’t take back his word. Karenin came to the funeral. But we tried
to prevent his meeting Alexey. For him, for her husband, it was easier, anyway.
She had set him free. But my poor son was utterly given up to her. He had
thrown up everything, his career, me, and even then she had no mercy on him,
but of set purpose she made his ruin complete. No, say what you will, her very
death was the death of a vile woman, of no religious feeling. God forgive me,
but I can’t help hating the memory of her, when I look at my son’s misery!”
“But how
is he now?”
“It was a
blessing from Providence for us—this Servian war. I’m old, and I don’t
understand the rights and wrongs of it, but it’s come as a providential
blessing to him. Of course for me, as his mother, it’s terrible; and what’s
worse, they say, ce n’est pas très bien vu à Pétersbourg. But it can’t
be helped! It was the one thing that could rouse him. Yashvin—a friend of
his—he had lost all he had at cards and he was going to Servia. He came to see
him and persuaded him to go. Now it’s an interest for him. Do please talk to
him a little. I want to distract his mind. He’s so low-spirited. And as bad
luck would have it, he has toothache too. But he’ll be delighted to see you.
Please do talk to him; he’s walking up and down on that side.”
Sergey
Ivanovitch said he would be very glad to, and crossed over to the other side of
the station.
Chapter 5
In the
slanting evening shadows cast by the baggage piled up on the platform, Vronsky
in his long overcoat and slouch hat, with his hands in his pockets, strode up
and down, like a wild beast in a cage, turning sharply after twenty paces.
Sergey Ivanovitch fancied, as he approached him, that Vronsky saw him but was
pretending not to see. This did not affect Sergey Ivanovitch in the slightest.
He was above all personal considerations with Vronsky.
At that
moment Sergey Ivanovitch looked upon Vronsky as a man taking an important part
in a great cause, and Koznishev thought it his duty to encourage him and
express his approval. He went up to him.
Vronsky
stood still, looked intently at him, recognized him, and going a few steps
forward to meet him, shook hands with him very warmly.
“Possibly
you didn’t wish to see me,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, “but couldn’t I be of use
to you?”
“There’s
no one I should less dislike seeing than you,” said Vronsky. “Excuse me; and
there’s nothing in life for me to like.”
“I quite
understand, and I merely meant to offer you my services,” said Sergey Ivanovitch,
scanning Vronsky’s face, full of unmistakable suffering. “Wouldn’t it be of use
to you to have a letter to Ristitch—to Milan?”
“Oh, no!”
Vronsky said, seeming to understand him with difficulty. “If you don’t mind,
let’s walk on. It’s so stuffy among the carriages. A letter? No, thank you; to
meet death one needs no letters of introduction. Nor for the Turks....” he
said, with a smile that was merely of the lips. His eyes still kept their look
of angry suffering.
“Yes; but
you might find it easier to get into relations, which are after all essential,
with anyone prepared to see you. But that’s as you like. I was very glad to
hear of your intention. There have been so many attacks made on the volunteers,
and a man like you raises them in public estimation.”
“My use as
a man,” said Vronsky, “is that life’s worth nothing to me. And that I’ve enough
bodily energy to cut my way into their ranks, and to trample on them or fall—I
know that. I’m glad there’s something to give my life for, for it’s not simply
useless but loathsome to me. Anyone’s welcome to it.” And his jaw twitched
impatiently from the incessant gnawing toothache, that prevented him from even
speaking with a natural expression.
“You will
become another man, I predict,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, feeling touched. “To
deliver one’s brother-men from bondage is an aim worth death and life. God
grant you success outwardly—and inwardly peace,” he added, and he held out his
hand. Vronsky warmly pressed his outstretched hand.
“Yes, as a
weapon I may be of some use. But as a man, I’m a wreck,” he jerked out.
He could
hardly speak for the throbbing ache in his strong teeth, that were like rows of
ivory in his mouth. He was silent, and his eyes rested on the wheels of the
tender, slowly and smoothly rolling along the rails.
And all at
once a different pain, not an ache, but an inner trouble, that set his whole
being in anguish, made him for an instant forget his toothache. As he glanced
at the tender and the rails, under the influence of the conversation with a
friend he had not met since his misfortune, he suddenly recalled her—that
is, what was left of her when he had run like one distraught into the cloak
room of the railway station—on the table, shamelessly sprawling out among
strangers, the bloodstained body so lately full of life; the head unhurt
dropping back with its weight of hair, and the curling tresses about the
temples, and the exquisite face, with red, half-opened mouth, the strange,
fixed expression, piteous on the lips and awful in the still open eyes, that
seemed to utter that fearful phrase—that he would be sorry for it—that she had
said when they were quarreling.
And he
tried to think of her as she was when he met her the first time, at a railway
station too, mysterious, exquisite, loving, seeking and giving happiness, and
not cruelly revengeful as he remembered her on that last moment. He tried to
recall his best moments with her, but those moments were poisoned forever. He
could only think of her as triumphant, successful in her menace of a wholly
useless remorse never to be effaced. He lost all consciousness of toothache,
and his face worked with sobs.
Passing
twice up and down beside the baggage in silence and regaining his
self-possession, he addressed Sergey Ivanovitch calmly:
“You have
had no telegrams since yesterday’s? Yes, driven back for a third time, but a
decisive engagement expected for tomorrow.”
And after
talking a little more of King Milan’s proclamation, and the immense effect it
might have, they parted, going to their carriages on hearing the second bell.
Chapter 6
Sergey
Ivanovitch had not telegraphed to his brother to send to meet him, as he did
not know when he should be able to leave Moscow. Levin was not at home when
Katavasov and Sergey Ivanovitch in a fly hired at the station drove up to the
steps of the Pokrovskoe house, as black as Moors from the dust of the road.
Kitty, sitting on the balcony with her father and sister, recognized her
brother-in-law, and ran down to meet him.
“What a
shame not to have let us know,” she said, giving her hand to Sergey Ivanovitch,
and putting her forehead up for him to kiss.
“We drove
here capitally, and have not put you out,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch. “I’m so
dirty. I’m afraid to touch you. I’ve been so busy, I didn’t know when I should
be able to tear myself away. And so you’re still as ever enjoying your
peaceful, quiet happiness,” he said, smiling, “out of the reach of the current
in your peaceful backwater. Here’s our friend Fyodor Vassilievitch who has
succeeded in getting here at last.”
“But I’m
not a negro, I shall look like a human being when I wash,” said Katavasov in
his jesting fashion, and he shook hands and smiled, his teeth flashing white in
his black face.
“Kostya
will be delighted. He has gone to his settlement. It’s time he should be home.”
“Busy as
ever with his farming. It really is a peaceful backwater,” said Katavasov;
“while we in town think of nothing but the Servian war. Well, how does our
friend look at it? He’s sure not to think like other people.”
“Oh, I
don’t know, like everybody else,” Kitty answered, a little embarrassed, looking
round at Sergey Ivanovitch. “I’ll send to fetch him. Papa’s staying with us.
He’s only just come home from abroad.”
And making
arrangements to send for Levin and for the guests to wash, one in his room and
the other in what had been Dolly’s, and giving orders for their luncheon, Kitty
ran out onto the balcony, enjoying the freedom, and rapidity of movement, of
which she had been deprived during the months of her pregnancy.
“It’s
Sergey Ivanovitch and Katavasov, a professor,” she said.
“Oh,
that’s a bore in this heat,” said the prince.
“No, papa,
he’s very nice, and Kostya’s very fond of him,” Kitty said, with a deprecating
smile, noticing the irony on her father’s face.
“Oh, I
didn’t say anything.”
“You go to
them, darling,” said Kitty to her sister, “and entertain them. They saw Stiva
at the station; he was quite well. And I must run to Mitya. As ill-luck would
have it, I haven’t fed him since tea. He’s awake now, and sure to be
screaming.” And feeling a rush of milk, she hurried to the nursery.
This was
not a mere guess; her connection with the child was still so close, that she
could gauge by the flow of her milk his need of food, and knew for certain he
was hungry.
She knew
he was crying before she reached the nursery. And he was indeed crying. She
heard him and hastened. But the faster she went, the louder he screamed. It was
a fine healthy scream, hungry and impatient.
“Has he
been screaming long, nurse, very long?” said Kitty hurriedly, seating herself
on a chair, and preparing to give the baby the breast. “But give me him
quickly. Oh, nurse, how tiresome you are! There, tie the cap afterwards, do!”
The baby’s
greedy scream was passing into sobs.
“But you
can’t manage so, ma’am,” said Agafea Mihalovna, who was almost always to be
found in the nursery. “He must be put straight. A-oo! a-oo!” she chanted over
him, paying no attention to the mother.
The nurse
brought the baby to his mother. Agafea Mihalovna followed him with a face
dissolving with tenderness.
“He knows
me, he knows me. In God’s faith, Katerina Alexandrovna, ma’am, he knew me!”
Agafea Mihalovna cried above the baby’s screams.
But Kitty
did not hear her words. Her impatience kept growing, like the baby’s.
Their
impatience hindered things for a while. The baby could not get hold of the
breast right, and was furious.
At last,
after despairing, breathless screaming, and vain sucking, things went right,
and mother and child felt simultaneously soothed, and both subsided into calm.
“But poor
darling, he’s all in perspiration!” said Kitty in a whisper, touching the baby.
“What
makes you think he knows you?” she added, with a sidelong glance at the baby’s
eyes, that peered roguishly, as she fancied, from under his cap, at his
rhythmically puffing cheeks, and the little red-palmed hand he was waving.
“Impossible!
If he knew anyone, he would have known me,” said Kitty, in response to Agafea
Mihalovna’s statement, and she smiled.
She smiled
because, though she said he could not know her, in her heart she was sure that
he knew not merely Agafea Mihalovna, but that he knew and understood
everything, and knew and understood a great deal too that no one else knew, and
that she, his mother, had learned and come to understand only through him. To
Agafea Mihalovna, to the nurse, to his grandfather, to his father even, Mitya
was a living being, requiring only material care, but for his mother he had
long been a mortal being, with whom there had been a whole series of spiritual
relations already.
“When he
wakes up, please God, you shall see for yourself. Then when I do like this, he
simply beams on me, the darling! Simply beams like a sunny day!” said Agafea
Mihalovna.
“Well,
well; then we shall see,” whispered Kitty. “But now go away, he’s going to sleep.”
Chapter 7
Agafea
Mihalovna went out on tiptoe; the nurse let down the blind, chased a fly out
from under the muslin canopy of the crib, and a bumblebee struggling on the
window-frame, and sat down waving a faded branch of birch over the mother and the
baby.
“How hot
it is! if God would send a drop of rain,” she said.
“Yes, yes,
sh—sh—sh——” was all Kitty answered, rocking a little, and tenderly squeezing
the plump little arm, with rolls of fat at the wrist, which Mitya still waved
feebly as he opened and shut his eyes. That hand worried Kitty; she longed to
kiss the little hand, but was afraid to for fear of waking the baby. At last
the little hand ceased waving, and the eyes closed. Only from time to time, as
he went on sucking, the baby raised his long, curly eyelashes and peeped at his
mother with wet eyes, that looked black in the twilight. The nurse had left off
fanning, and was dozing. From above came the peals of the old prince’s voice,
and the chuckle of Katavasov.
“They have
got into talk without me,” thought Kitty, “but still it’s vexing that Kostya’s
out. He’s sure to have gone to the bee-house again. Though it’s a pity he’s
there so often, still I’m glad. It distracts his mind. He’s become altogether
happier and better now than in the spring. He used to be so gloomy and worried
that I felt frightened for him. And how absurd he is!” she whispered, smiling.
She knew
what worried her husband. It was his unbelief. Although, if she had been asked
whether she supposed that in the future life, if he did not believe, he would
be damned, she would have had to admit that he would be damned, his unbelief
did not cause her unhappiness. And she, confessing that for an unbeliever there
can be no salvation, and loving her husband’s soul more than anything in the
world, thought with a smile of his unbelief, and told herself that he was
absurd.
“What does
he keep reading philosophy of some sort for all this year?” she wondered. “If
it’s all written in those books, he can understand them. If it’s all wrong, why
does he read them? He says himself that he would like to believe. Then why is
it he doesn’t believe? Surely from his thinking so much? And he thinks so much
from being solitary. He’s always alone, alone. He can’t talk about it all to
us. I fancy he’ll be glad of these visitors, especially Katavasov. He likes
discussions with them,” she thought, and passed instantly to the consideration
of where it would be more convenient to put Katavasov, to sleep alone or to
share Sergey Ivanovitch’s room. And then an idea suddenly struck her, which
made her shudder and even disturb Mitya, who glanced severely at her. “I do
believe the laundress hasn’t sent the washing yet, and all the best sheets are
in use. If I don’t see to it, Agafea Mihalovna will give Sergey Ivanovitch the
wrong sheets,” and at the very idea of this the blood rushed to Kitty’s face.
“Yes, I
will arrange it,” she decided, and going back to her former thoughts, she
remembered that some spiritual question of importance had been interrupted, and
she began to recall what. “Yes, Kostya, an unbeliever,” she thought again with
a smile.
“Well, an
unbeliever then! Better let him always be one than like Madame Stahl, or what I
tried to be in those days abroad. No, he won’t ever sham anything.”
And a
recent instance of his goodness rose vividly to her mind. A fortnight ago a
penitent letter had come from Stepan Arkadyevitch to Dolly. He besought her to
save his honor, to sell her estate to pay his debts. Dolly was in despair, she
detested her husband, despised him, pitied him, resolved on a separation,
resolved to refuse, but ended by agreeing to sell part of her property. After
that, with an irrepressible smile of tenderness, Kitty recalled her husband’s
shamefaced embarrassment, his repeated awkward efforts to approach the subject,
and how at last, having thought of the one means of helping Dolly without
wounding her pride, he had suggested to Kitty—what had not occurred to her
before—that she should give up her share of the property.
“He an
unbeliever indeed! With his heart, his dread of offending anyone, even a child!
Everything for others, nothing for himself. Sergey Ivanovitch simply considers
it as Kostya’s duty to be his steward. And it’s the same with his sister. Now
Dolly and her children are under his guardianship; all these peasants who come
to him every day, as though he were bound to be at their service.”
“Yes, only
be like your father, only like him,” she said, handing Mitya over to the nurse,
and putting her lips to his cheek.
Chapter 8
Ever
since, by his beloved brother’s deathbed, Levin had first glanced into the
questions of life and death in the light of these new convictions, as he called
them, which had during the period from his twentieth to his thirty-fourth year
imperceptibly replaced his childish and youthful beliefs—he had been stricken
with horror, not so much of death, as of life, without any knowledge of whence,
and why, and how, and what it was. The physical organization, its decay, the indestructibility
of matter, the law of the conservation of energy, evolution, were the words
which usurped the place of his old belief. These words and the ideas associated
with them were very well for intellectual purposes. But for life they yielded
nothing, and Levin felt suddenly like a man who has changed his warm fur cloak
for a muslin garment, and going for the first time into the frost is
immediately convinced, not by reason, but by his whole nature that he is as
good as naked, and that he must infallibly perish miserably.
From that
moment, though he did not distinctly face it, and still went on living as
before, Levin had never lost this sense of terror at his lack of knowledge.
He vaguely
felt, too, that what he called his new convictions were not merely lack of
knowledge, but that they were part of a whole order of ideas, in which no
knowledge of what he needed was possible.
At first,
marriage, with the new joys and duties bound up with it, had completely crowded
out these thoughts. But of late, while he was staying in Moscow after his
wife’s confinement, with nothing to do, the question that clamored for solution
had more and more often, more and more insistently, haunted Levin’s mind.
The
question was summed up for him thus: “If I do not accept the answers
Christianity gives to the problems of my life, what answers do I accept?” And
in the whole arsenal of his convictions, so far from finding any satisfactory
answers, he was utterly unable to find anything at all like an answer.
He was in
the position of a man seeking food in toy shops and tool shops.
Instinctively,
unconsciously, with every book, with every conversation, with every man he met,
he was on the lookout for light on these questions and their solution.
What
puzzled and distracted him above everything was that the majority of men of his
age and circle had, like him, exchanged their old beliefs for the same new
convictions, and yet saw nothing to lament in this, and were perfectly
satisfied and serene. So that, apart from the principal question, Levin was
tortured by other questions too. Were these people sincere? he asked himself,
or were they playing a part? or was it that they understood the answers science
gave to these problems in some different, clearer sense than he did? And he
assiduously studied both these men’s opinions and the books which treated of
these scientific explanations.
One fact
he had found out since these questions had engrossed his mind, was that he had
been quite wrong in supposing from the recollections of the circle of his young
days at college, that religion had outlived its day, and that it was now
practically non-existent. All the people nearest to him who were good in their
lives were believers. The old prince, and Lvov, whom he liked so much, and
Sergey Ivanovitch, and all the women believed, and his wife believed as simply
as he had believed in his earliest childhood, and ninety-nine hundredths of the
Russian people, all the working people for whose life he felt the deepest
respect, believed.
Another
fact of which he became convinced, after reading many scientific books, was
that the men who shared his views had no other construction to put on them, and
that they gave no explanation of the questions which he felt he could not live
without answering, but simply ignored their existence and attempted to explain
other questions of no possible interest to him, such as the evolution of
organisms, the materialistic theory of consciousness, and so forth.
Moreover,
during his wife’s confinement, something had happened that seemed extraordinary
to him. He, an unbeliever, had fallen into praying, and at the moment he
prayed, he believed. But that moment had passed, and he could not make his
state of mind at that moment fit into the rest of his life.
He could not admit that at that moment he knew the truth, and that now he was wrong; for as soon as he began thinking calmly about it, it all fell to pieces. He could not admit that he was mistaken then, for his spiritual condition then was precious to him, and to admit that it was a proof of weakness would have been to desecrate those moments. He was miserably divided against himself, and strained all his spiritual forces to the utmost to escape from this cond PART EIGHT
Chapter 1
Almost two
months had passed. The hot summer was half over, but Sergey Ivanovitch was only
just preparing to leave Moscow.
Sergey
Ivanovitch’s life had not been uneventful during this time. A year ago he had
finished his book, the fruit of six years’ labour, “Sketch of a Survey of the
Principles and Forms of Government in Europe and Russia.” Several sections of
this book and its introduction had appeared in periodical publications, and
other parts had been read by Sergey Ivanovitch to persons of his circle, so
that the leading ideas of the work could not be completely novel to the public.
But still Sergey Ivanovitch had expected that on its appearance his book would
be sure to make a serious impression on society, and if it did not cause a
revolution in social science it would, at any rate, make a great stir in the
scientific world.
After the
most conscientious revision the book had last year been published, and had been
distributed among the booksellers.
Though he
asked no one about it, reluctantly and with feigned indifference answered his
friends’ inquiries as to how the book was going, and did not even inquire of
the booksellers how the book was selling, Sergey Ivanovitch was all on the
alert, with strained attention, watching for the first impression his book
would make in the world and in literature.
But a week
passed, a second, a third, and in society no impression whatever could be
detected. His friends who were specialists and savants,
occasionally—unmistakably from politeness—alluded to it. The rest of his
acquaintances, not interested in a book on a learned subject, did not talk of
it at all. And society generally—just now especially absorbed in other
things—was absolutely indifferent. In the press, too, for a whole month there
was not a word about his book.
Sergey
Ivanovitch had calculated to a nicety the time necessary for writing a review,
but a month passed, and a second, and still there was silence.
Only in
the Northern Beetle, in a comic article on the singer Drabanti, who had
lost his voice, there was a contemptuous allusion to Koznishev’s book,
suggesting that the book had been long ago seen through by everyone, and was a
subject of general ridicule.
At last in
the third month a critical article appeared in a serious review. Sergey
Ivanovitch knew the author of the article. He had met him once at Golubtsov’s.
The author
of the article was a young man, an invalid, very bold as a writer, but
extremely deficient in breeding and shy in personal relations.
In spite
of his absolute contempt for the author, it was with complete respect that
Sergey Ivanovitch set about reading the article. The article was awful.
The critic
had undoubtedly put an interpretation upon the book which could not possibly be
put on it. But he had selected quotations so adroitly that for people who had
not read the book (and obviously scarcely anyone had read it) it seemed
absolutely clear that the whole book was nothing but a medley of high-flown
phrases, not even—as suggested by marks of interrogation—used appropriately,
and that the author of the book was a person absolutely without knowledge of
the subject. And all this was so wittily done that Sergey Ivanovitch would not
have disowned such wit himself. But that was just what was so awful.
In spite
of the scrupulous conscientiousness with which Sergey Ivanovitch verified the
correctness of the critic’s arguments, he did not for a minute stop to ponder
over the faults and mistakes which were ridiculed; but unconsciously he began
immediately trying to recall every detail of his meeting and conversation with
the author of the article.
“Didn’t I
offend him in some way?” Sergey Ivanovitch wondered.
And
remembering that when they met he had corrected the young man about something
he had said that betrayed ignorance, Sergey Ivanovitch found the clue to
explain the article.
This
article was followed by a deadly silence about the book both in the press and
in conversation, and Sergey Ivanovitch saw that his six years’ task, toiled at
with such love and labour, had gone, leaving no trace.
Sergey
Ivanovitch’s position was still more difficult from the fact that, since he had
finished his book, he had had no more literary work to do, such as had hitherto
occupied the greater part of his time.
Sergey
Ivanovitch was clever, cultivated, healthy, and energetic, and he did not know
what use to make of his energy. Conversations in drawing-rooms, in meetings,
assemblies, and committees—everywhere where talk was possible—took up part of
his time. But being used for years to town life, he did not waste all his
energies in talk, as his less experienced younger brother did, when he was in
Moscow. He had a great deal of leisure and intellectual energy still to dispose
of.
Fortunately
for him, at this period so difficult for him from the failure of his book, the
various public questions of the dissenting sects, of the American alliance, of
the Samara famine, of exhibitions, and of spiritualism, were definitely
replaced in public interest by the Slavonic question, which had hitherto rather
languidly interested society, and Sergey Ivanovitch, who had been one of the
first to raise this subject, threw himself into it heart and soul.
In the
circle to which Sergey Ivanovitch belonged, nothing was talked of or written
about just now but the Servian War. Everything that the idle crowd usually does
to kill time was done now for the benefit of the Slavonic States. Balls,
concerts, dinners, matchboxes, ladies’ dresses, beer, restaurants—everything
testified to sympathy with the Slavonic peoples.
From much
of what was spoken and written on the subject, Sergey Ivanovitch differed on
various points. He saw that the Slavonic question had become one of those
fashionable distractions which succeed one another in providing society with an
object and an occupation. He saw, too, that a great many people were taking up
the subject from motives of self-interest and self-advertisement. He recognized
that the newspapers published a great deal that was superfluous and
exaggerated, with the sole aim of attracting attention and outbidding one
another. He saw that in this general movement those who thrust themselves most
forward and shouted the loudest were men who had failed and were smarting under
a sense of injury—generals without armies, ministers not in the ministry,
journalists not on any paper, party leaders without followers. He saw that
there was a great deal in it that was frivolous and absurd. But he saw and
recognized an unmistakable growing enthusiasm, uniting all classes, with which
it was impossible not to sympathize. The massacre of men who were fellow
Christians, and of the same Slavonic race, excited sympathy for the sufferers
and indignation against the oppressors. And the heroism of the Servians and
Montenegrins struggling for a great cause begot in the whole people a longing
to help their brothers not in word but in deed.
But in
this there was another aspect that rejoiced Sergey Ivanovitch. That was the
manifestation of public opinion. The public had definitely expressed its
desire. The soul of the people had, as Sergey Ivanovitch said, found
expression. And the more he worked in this cause, the more incontestable it
seemed to him that it was a cause destined to assume vast dimensions, to create
an epoch.
He threw
himself heart and soul into the service of this great cause, and forgot to
think about his book. His whole time now was engrossed by it, so that he could
scarcely manage to answer all the letters and appeals addressed to him. He
worked the whole spring and part of the summer, and it was only in July that he
prepared to go away to his brother’s in the country.
He was
going both to rest for a fortnight, and in the very heart of the people, in the
farthest wilds of the country, to enjoy the sight of that uplifting of the
spirit of the people, of which, like all residents in the capital and big
towns, he was fully persuaded. Katavasov had long been meaning to carry out his
promise to stay with Levin, and so he was going with him.
Chapter 2
Sergey
Ivanovitch and Katavasov had only just reached the station of the Kursk line,
which was particularly busy and full of people that day, when, looking round
for the groom who was following with their things, they saw a party of
volunteers driving up in four cabs. Ladies met them with bouquets of flowers,
and followed by the rushing crowd they went into the station.
One of the
ladies, who had met the volunteers, came out of the hall and addressed Sergey
Ivanovitch.
“You too
come to see them off?” she asked in French.
“No, I’m
going away myself, princess. To my brother’s for a holiday. Do you always see
them off?” said Sergey Ivanovitch with a hardly perceptible smile.
“Oh, that
would be impossible!” answered the princess. “Is it true that eight hundred
have been sent from us already? Malvinsky wouldn’t believe me.”
“More than
eight hundred. If you reckon those who have been sent not directly from Moscow,
over a thousand,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch.
“There!
That’s just what I said!” exclaimed the lady. “And it’s true too, I suppose,
that more than a million has been subscribed?”
“Yes,
princess.”
“What do
you say to today’s telegram? Beaten the Turks again.”
“Yes, so I
saw,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch. They were speaking of the last telegram
stating that the Turks had been for three days in succession beaten at all
points and put to flight, and that tomorrow a decisive engagement was expected.
“Ah, by
the way, a splendid young fellow has asked leave to go, and they’ve made some
difficulty, I don’t know why. I meant to ask you; I know him; please write a
note about his case. He’s being sent by Countess Lidia Ivanovna.”
Sergey
Ivanovitch asked for all the details the princess knew about the young man, and
going into the first-class waiting-room, wrote a note to the person on whom the
granting of leave of absence depended, and handed it to the princess.
“You know
Count Vronsky, the notorious one ... is going by this train?” said the princess
with a smile full of triumph and meaning, when he found her again and gave her
the letter.
“I had
heard he was going, but I did not know when. By this train?”
“I’ve seen
him. He’s here: there’s only his mother seeing him off. It’s the best thing,
anyway, that he could do.”
“Oh, yes,
of course.”
While they
were talking the crowd streamed by them into the dining-room. They went forward
too, and heard a gentleman with a glass in his hand delivering a loud discourse
to the volunteers. “In the service of religion, humanity, and our brothers,”
the gentleman said, his voice growing louder and louder; “to this great cause
mother Moscow dedicates you with her blessing. Jivio! he concluded,
loudly and tearfully.
Everyone
shouted Jivio! and a fresh crowd dashed into the hall, almost carrying
the princess off her legs.
“Ah,
princess! that was something like!” said Stepan Arkadyevitch, suddenly
appearing in the middle of the crowd and beaming upon them with a delighted
smile. “Capitally, warmly said, wasn’t it? Bravo! And Sergey Ivanovitch! Why,
you ought to have said something—just a few words, you know, to encourage them;
you do that so well,” he added with a soft, respectful, and discreet smile,
moving Sergey Ivanovitch forward a little by the arm.
“No, I’m
just off.”
“Where
to?”
“To the
country, to my brother’s,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch.
“Then
you’ll see my wife. I’ve written to her, but you’ll see her first. Please tell
her that they’ve seen me and that it’s ‘all right,’ as the English say. She’ll
understand. Oh, and be so good as to tell her I’m appointed secretary of the
committee.... But she’ll understand! You know, les petites misères de la vie
humaine,” he said, as it were apologizing to the princess. “And Princess
Myakaya—not Liza, but Bibish—is sending a thousand guns and twelve nurses. Did
I tell you?”
“Yes, I
heard so,” answered Koznishev indifferently.
“It’s a
pity you’re going away,” said Stepan Arkadyevitch. “Tomorrow we’re giving a
dinner to two who’re setting off—Dimer-Bartnyansky from Petersburg and our
Veslovsky, Grisha. They’re both going. Veslovsky’s only lately married. There’s
a fine fellow for you! Eh, princess?” he turned to the lady.
The
princess looked at Koznishev without replying. But the fact that Sergey
Ivanovitch and the princess seemed anxious to get rid of him did not in the
least disconcert Stepan Arkadyevitch. Smiling, he stared at the feather in the
princess’s hat, and then about him as though he were going to pick something
up. Seeing a lady approaching with a collecting box, he beckoned her up and put
in a five-rouble note.
“I can
never see these collecting boxes unmoved while I’ve money in my pocket,” he
said. “And how about today’s telegram? Fine chaps those Montenegrins!”
“You don’t
say so!” he cried, when the princess told him that Vronsky was going by this
train. For an instant Stepan Arkadyevitch’s face looked sad, but a minute
later, when, stroking his moustaches and swinging as he walked, he went into
the hall where Vronsky was, he had completely forgotten his own despairing sobs
over his sister’s corpse, and he saw in Vronsky only a hero and an old friend.
“With all
his faults one can’t refuse to do him justice,” said the princess to Sergey
Ivanovitch as soon as Stepan Arkadyevitch had left them. “What a typically
Russian, Slav nature! Only, I’m afraid it won’t be pleasant for Vronsky to see
him. Say what you will, I’m touched by that man’s fate. Do talk to him a little
on the way,” said the princess.
“Yes,
perhaps, if it happens so.”
“I never
liked him. But this atones for a great deal. He’s not merely going himself,
he’s taking a squadron at his own expense.”
“Yes, so I
heard.”
A bell
sounded. Everyone crowded to the doors. “Here he is!” said the princess,
indicating Vronsky, who with his mother on his arm walked by, wearing a long
overcoat and wide-brimmed black hat. Oblonsky was walking beside him, talking
eagerly of something.
Vronsky
was frowning and looking straight before him, as though he did not hear what
Stepan Arkadyevitch was saying.
Probably
on Oblonsky’s pointing them out, he looked round in the direction where the
princess and Sergey Ivanovitch were standing, and without speaking lifted his
hat. His face, aged and worn by suffering, looked stony.
Going onto
the platform, Vronsky left his mother and disappeared into a compartment.
On the
platform there rang out “God save the Tsar,” then shouts of “hurrah!” and “jivio!”
One of the volunteers, a tall, very young man with a hollow chest, was
particularly conspicuous, bowing and waving his felt hat and a nosegay over his
head. Then two officers emerged, bowing too, and a stout man with a big beard,
wearing a greasy forage cap.
Chapter 3
Saying
good-bye to the princess, Sergey Ivanovitch was joined by Katavasov; together
they got into a carriage full to overflowing, and the train started.
At
Tsaritsino station the train was met by a chorus of young men singing “Hail to
Thee!” Again the volunteers bowed and poked their heads out, but Sergey
Ivanovitch paid no attention to them. He had had so much to do with the
volunteers that the type was familiar to him and did not interest him.
Katavasov, whose scientific work had prevented his having a chance of observing
them hitherto, was very much interested in them and questioned Sergey
Ivanovitch.
Sergey
Ivanovitch advised him to go into the second-class and talk to them himself. At
the next station Katavasov acted on this suggestion.
At the
first stop he moved into the second-class and made the acquaintance of the
volunteers. They were sitting in a corner of the carriage, talking loudly and
obviously aware that the attention of the passengers and Katavasov as he got in
was concentrated upon them. More loudly than all talked the tall,
hollow-chested young man. He was unmistakably tipsy, and was relating some
story that had occurred at his school. Facing him sat a middle-aged officer in
the Austrian military jacket of the Guards uniform. He was listening with a
smile to the hollow-chested youth, and occasionally pulling him up. The third,
in an artillery uniform, was sitting on a box beside them. A fourth was asleep.
Entering
into conversation with the youth, Katavasov learned that he was a wealthy
Moscow merchant who had run through a large fortune before he was
two-and-twenty. Katavasov did not like him, because he was unmanly and
effeminate and sickly. He was obviously convinced, especially now after
drinking, that he was performing a heroic action, and he bragged of it in the
most unpleasant way.
The
second, the retired officer, made an unpleasant impression too upon Katavasov.
He was, it seemed, a man who had tried everything. He had been on a railway,
had been a land-steward, and had started factories, and he talked, quite
without necessity, of all he had done, and used learned expressions quite
inappropriately.
The third,
the artilleryman, on the contrary, struck Katavasov very favourably. He was a
quiet, modest fellow, unmistakably impressed by the knowledge of the officer
and the heroic self-sacrifice of the merchant and saying nothing about himself.
When Katavasov asked him what had impelled him to go to Servia, he answered
modestly:
“Oh, well,
everyone’s going. The Servians want help, too. I’m sorry for them.”
“Yes, you
artillerymen especially are scarce there,” said Katavasov.
“Oh, I
wasn’t long in the artillery, maybe they’ll put me into the infantry or the
cavalry.”
“Into the
infantry when they need artillery more than anything?” said Katavasov, fancying
from the artilleryman’s apparent age that he must have reached a fairly high
grade.
“I wasn’t
long in the artillery; I’m a cadet retired,” he said, and he began to explain
how he had failed in his examination.
All of
this together made a disagreeable impression on Katavasov, and when the
volunteers got out at a station for a drink, Katavasov would have liked to
compare his unfavourable impression in conversation with someone. There was an
old man in the carriage, wearing a military overcoat, who had been listening
all the while to Katavasov’s conversation with the volunteers. When they were
left alone, Katavasov addressed him.
“What
different positions they come from, all those fellows who are going off there,”
Katavasov said vaguely, not wishing to express his own opinion, and at the same
time anxious to find out the old man’s views.
The old
man was an officer who had served on two campaigns. He knew what makes a
soldier, and judging by the appearance and the talk of those persons, by the
swagger with which they had recourse to the bottle on the journey, he
considered them poor soldiers. Moreover, he lived in a district town, and he
was longing to tell how one soldier had volunteered from his town, a drunkard
and a thief whom no one would employ as a labourer. But knowing by experience
that in the present condition of the public temper it was dangerous to express
an opinion opposed to the general one, and especially to criticize the
volunteers unfavourably, he too watched Katavasov without committing himself.
“Well, men
are wanted there,” he said, laughing with his eyes. And they fell to talking of
the last war news, and each concealed from the other his perplexity as to the
engagement expected next day, since the Turks had been beaten, according to the
latest news, at all points. And so they parted, neither giving expression to
his opinion.
Katavasov
went back to his own carriage, and with reluctant hypocrisy reported to Sergey
Ivanovitch his observations of the volunteers, from which it would appear that
they were capital fellows.
At a big
station at a town the volunteers were again greeted with shouts and singing,
again men and women with collecting boxes appeared, and provincial ladies
brought bouquets to the volunteers and followed them into the refreshment room;
but all this was on a much smaller and feebler scale than in Moscow.
Chapter 4
While the
train was stopping at the provincial town, Sergey Ivanovitch did not go to the
refreshment room, but walked up and down the platform.
The first
time he passed Vronsky’s compartment he noticed that the curtain was drawn over
the window; but as he passed it the second time he saw the old countess at the
window. She beckoned to Koznishev.
“I’m
going, you see, taking him as far as Kursk,” she said.
“Yes, so I
heard,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, standing at her window and peeping in. “What a
noble act on his part!” he added, noticing that Vronsky was not in the
compartment.
“Yes,
after his misfortune, what was there for him to do?”
“What a
terrible thing it was!” said Sergey Ivanovitch.
“Ah, what
I have been through! But do get in.... Ah, what I have been through!” she
repeated, when Sergey Ivanovitch had got in and sat down beside her. “You can’t
conceive it! For six weeks he did not speak to anyone, and would not touch food
except when I implored him. And not for one minute could we leave him alone. We
took away everything he could have used against himself. We lived on the ground
floor, but there was no reckoning on anything. You know, of course, that he had
shot himself once already on her account,” she said, and the old lady’s
eyelashes twitched at the recollection. “Yes, hers was the fitting end for such
a woman. Even the death she chose was low and vulgar.”
“It’s not
for us to judge, countess,” said Sergey Ivanovitch; “but I can understand that
it has been very hard for you.”
“Ah, don’t
speak of it! I was staying on my estate, and he was with me. A note was brought
him. He wrote an answer and sent it off. We hadn’t an idea that she was close
by at the station. In the evening I had only just gone to my room, when my Mary
told me a lady had thrown herself under the train. Something seemed to strike
me at once. I knew it was she. The first thing I said was, he was not to be
told. But they’d told him already. His coachman was there and saw it all. When
I ran into his room, he was beside himself—it was fearful to see him. He didn’t
say a word, but galloped off there. I don’t know to this day what happened
there, but he was brought back at death’s door. I shouldn’t have known him. Prostration
complète, the doctor said. And that was followed almost by madness. Oh, why
talk of it!” said the countess with a wave of her hand. “It was an awful time!
No, say what you will, she was a bad woman. Why, what is the meaning of such
desperate passions? It was all to show herself something out of the way. Well,
and that she did do. She brought herself to ruin and two good men—her husband
and my unhappy son.”
“And what
did her husband do?” asked Sergey Ivanovitch.
“He has
taken her daughter. Alexey was ready to agree to anything at first. Now it
worries him terribly that he should have given his own child away to another
man. But he can’t take back his word. Karenin came to the funeral. But we tried
to prevent his meeting Alexey. For him, for her husband, it was easier, anyway.
She had set him free. But my poor son was utterly given up to her. He had
thrown up everything, his career, me, and even then she had no mercy on him,
but of set purpose she made his ruin complete. No, say what you will, her very
death was the death of a vile woman, of no religious feeling. God forgive me,
but I can’t help hating the memory of her, when I look at my son’s misery!”
“But how
is he now?”
“It was a
blessing from Providence for us—this Servian war. I’m old, and I don’t
understand the rights and wrongs of it, but it’s come as a providential
blessing to him. Of course for me, as his mother, it’s terrible; and what’s
worse, they say, ce n’est pas très bien vu à Pétersbourg. But it can’t
be helped! It was the one thing that could rouse him. Yashvin—a friend of
his—he had lost all he had at cards and he was going to Servia. He came to see
him and persuaded him to go. Now it’s an interest for him. Do please talk to
him a little. I want to distract his mind. He’s so low-spirited. And as bad
luck would have it, he has toothache too. But he’ll be delighted to see you.
Please do talk to him; he’s walking up and down on that side.”
Sergey
Ivanovitch said he would be very glad to, and crossed over to the other side of
the station.
Chapter 5
In the
slanting evening shadows cast by the baggage piled up on the platform, Vronsky
in his long overcoat and slouch hat, with his hands in his pockets, strode up
and down, like a wild beast in a cage, turning sharply after twenty paces.
Sergey Ivanovitch fancied, as he approached him, that Vronsky saw him but was
pretending not to see. This did not affect Sergey Ivanovitch in the slightest.
He was above all personal considerations with Vronsky.
At that
moment Sergey Ivanovitch looked upon Vronsky as a man taking an important part
in a great cause, and Koznishev thought it his duty to encourage him and
express his approval. He went up to him.
Vronsky
stood still, looked intently at him, recognized him, and going a few steps
forward to meet him, shook hands with him very warmly.
“Possibly
you didn’t wish to see me,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, “but couldn’t I be of use
to you?”
“There’s
no one I should less dislike seeing than you,” said Vronsky. “Excuse me; and
there’s nothing in life for me to like.”
“I quite
understand, and I merely meant to offer you my services,” said Sergey
Ivanovitch, scanning Vronsky’s face, full of unmistakable suffering. “Wouldn’t
it be of use to you to have a letter to Ristitch—to Milan?”
“Oh, no!”
Vronsky said, seeming to understand him with difficulty. “If you don’t mind,
let’s walk on. It’s so stuffy among the carriages. A letter? No, thank you; to
meet death one needs no letters of introduction. Nor for the Turks....” he
said, with a smile that was merely of the lips. His eyes still kept their look
of angry suffering.
“Yes; but
you might find it easier to get into relations, which are after all essential,
with anyone prepared to see you. But that’s as you like. I was very glad to
hear of your intention. There have been so many attacks made on the volunteers,
and a man like you raises them in public estimation.”
“My use as
a man,” said Vronsky, “is that life’s worth nothing to me. And that I’ve enough
bodily energy to cut my way into their ranks, and to trample on them or fall—I
know that. I’m glad there’s something to give my life for, for it’s not simply
useless but loathsome to me. Anyone’s welcome to it.” And his jaw twitched
impatiently from the incessant gnawing toothache, that prevented him from even
speaking with a natural expression.
“You will
become another man, I predict,” said Sergey Ivanovitch, feeling touched. “To
deliver one’s brother-men from bondage is an aim worth death and life. God
grant you success outwardly—and inwardly peace,” he added, and he held out his
hand. Vronsky warmly pressed his outstretched hand.
“Yes, as a
weapon I may be of some use. But as a man, I’m a wreck,” he jerked out.
He could
hardly speak for the throbbing ache in his strong teeth, that were like rows of
ivory in his mouth. He was silent, and his eyes rested on the wheels of the
tender, slowly and smoothly rolling along the rails.
And all at
once a different pain, not an ache, but an inner trouble, that set his whole
being in anguish, made him for an instant forget his toothache. As he glanced
at the tender and the rails, under the influence of the conversation with a
friend he had not met since his misfortune, he suddenly recalled her—that
is, what was left of her when he had run like one distraught into the cloak
room of the railway station—on the table, shamelessly sprawling out among
strangers, the bloodstained body so lately full of life; the head unhurt
dropping back with its weight of hair, and the curling tresses about the
temples, and the exquisite face, with red, half-opened mouth, the strange,
fixed expression, piteous on the lips and awful in the still open eyes, that
seemed to utter that fearful phrase—that he would be sorry for it—that she had
said when they were quarrelling.
And he
tried to think of her as she was when he met her the first time, at a railway
station too, mysterious, exquisite, loving, seeking and giving happiness, and
not cruelly revengeful as he remembered her on that last moment. He tried to
recall his best moments with her, but those moments were poisoned forever. He
could only think of her as triumphant, successful in her menace of a wholly
useless remorse never to be effaced. He lost all consciousness of toothache,
and his face worked with sobs.
Passing
twice up and down beside the baggage in silence and regaining his
self-possession, he addressed Sergey Ivanovitch calmly:
“You have
had no telegrams since yesterday’s? Yes, driven back for a third time, but a
decisive engagement expected for tomorrow.”
And after
talking a little more of King Milan’s proclamation, and the immense effect it
might have, they parted, going to their carriages on hearing the second bell.
Chapter 6
Sergey
Ivanovitch had not telegraphed to his brother to send to meet him, as he did
not know when he should be able to leave Moscow. Levin was not at home when
Katavasov and Sergey Ivanovitch in a fly hired at the station drove up to the
steps of the Pokrovskoe house, as black as Moors from the dust of the road.
Kitty, sitting on the balcony with her father and sister, recognized her
brother-in-law, and ran down to meet him.
“What a
shame not to have let us know,” she said, giving her hand to Sergey Ivanovitch,
and putting her forehead up for him to kiss.
“We drove
here capitally, and have not put you out,” answered Sergey Ivanovitch. “I’m so
dirty. I’m afraid to touch you. I’ve been so busy, I didn’t know when I should
be able to tear myself away. And so you’re still as ever enjoying your
peaceful, quiet happiness,” he said, smiling, “out of the reach of the current
in your peaceful backwater. Here’s our friend Fyodor Vassilievitch who has
succeeded in getting here at last.”
“But I’m
not a negro, I shall look like a human being when I wash,” said Katavasov in
his jesting fashion, and he shook hands and smiled, his teeth flashing white in
his black face.
“Kostya
will be delighted. He has gone to his settlement. It’s time he should be home.”
“Busy as
ever with his farming. It really is a peaceful backwater,” said Katavasov;
“while we in town think of nothing but the Servian war. Well, how does our
friend look at it? He’s sure not to think like other people.”
“Oh, I
don’t know, like everybody else,” Kitty answered, a little embarrassed, looking
round at Sergey Ivanovitch. “I’ll send to fetch him. Papa’s staying with us.
He’s only just come home from abroad.”
And making
arrangements to send for Levin and for the guests to wash, one in his room and
the other in what had been Dolly’s, and giving orders for their luncheon, Kitty
ran out onto the balcony, enjoying the freedom, and rapidity of movement, of
which she had been deprived during the months of her pregnancy.
“It’s
Sergey Ivanovitch and Katavasov, a professor,” she said.
“Oh,
that’s a bore in this heat,” said the prince.
“No, papa,
he’s very nice, and Kostya’s very fond of him,” Kitty said, with a deprecating
smile, noticing the irony on her father’s face.
“Oh, I
didn’t say anything.”
“You go to
them, darling,” said Kitty to her sister, “and entertain them. They saw Stiva
at the station; he was quite well. And I must run to Mitya. As ill-luck would
have it, I haven’t fed him since tea. He’s awake now, and sure to be
screaming.” And feeling a rush of milk, she hurried to the nursery.
This was
not a mere guess; her connection with the child was still so close, that she
could gauge by the flow of her milk his need of food, and knew for certain he
was hungry.
She knew
he was crying before she reached the nursery. And he was indeed crying. She
heard him and hastened. But the faster she went, the louder he screamed. It was
a fine healthy scream, hungry and impatient.
“Has he
been screaming long, nurse, very long?” said Kitty hurriedly, seating herself
on a chair, and preparing to give the baby the breast. “But give me him
quickly. Oh, nurse, how tiresome you are! There, tie the cap afterwards, do!”
The baby’s
greedy scream was passing into sobs.
“But you
can’t manage so, ma’am,” said Agafea Mihalovna, who was almost always to be
found in the nursery. “He must be put straight. A-oo! a-oo!” she chanted over
him, paying no attention to the mother.
The nurse
brought the baby to his mother. Agafea Mihalovna followed him with a face
dissolving with tenderness.
“He knows
me, he knows me. In God’s faith, Katerina Alexandrovna, ma’am, he knew me!”
Agafea Mihalovna cried above the baby’s screams.
But Kitty
did not hear her words. Her impatience kept growing, like the baby’s.
Their
impatience hindered things for a while. The baby could not get hold of the
breast right, and was furious.
At last,
after despairing, breathless screaming, and vain sucking, things went right,
and mother and child felt simultaneously soothed, and both subsided into calm.
“But poor
darling, he’s all in perspiration!” said Kitty in a whisper, touching the baby.
“What
makes you think he knows you?” she added, with a sidelong glance at the baby’s
eyes, that peered roguishly, as she fancied, from under his cap, at his
rhythmically puffing cheeks, and the little red-palmed hand he was waving.
“Impossible!
If he knew anyone, he would have known me,” said Kitty, in response to Agafea
Mihalovna’s statement, and she smiled.
She smiled
because, though she said he could not know her, in her heart she was sure that
he knew not merely Agafea Mihalovna, but that he knew and understood
everything, and knew and understood a great deal too that no one else knew, and
that she, his mother, had learned and come to understand only through him. To
Agafea Mihalovna, to the nurse, to his grandfather, to his father even, Mitya
was a living being, requiring only material care, but for his mother he had
long been a mortal being, with whom there had been a whole series of spiritual
relations already.
“When he
wakes up, please God, you shall see for yourself. Then when I do like this, he
simply beams on me, the darling! Simply beams like a sunny day!” said Agafea
Mihalovna.
“Well,
well; then we shall see,” whispered Kitty. “But now go away, he’s going to
sleep.”
Chapter 7
Agafea
Mihalovna went out on tiptoe; the nurse let down the blind, chased a fly out
from under the muslin canopy of the crib, and a bumblebee struggling on the
window-frame, and sat down waving a faded branch of birch over the mother and
the baby.
“How hot
it is! if God would send a drop of rain,” she said.
“Yes, yes,
sh—sh—sh——” was all Kitty answered, rocking a little, and tenderly squeezing
the plump little arm, with rolls of fat at the wrist, which Mitya still waved
feebly as he opened and shut his eyes. That hand worried Kitty; she longed to
kiss the little hand, but was afraid to for fear of waking the baby. At last
the little hand ceased waving, and the eyes closed. Only from time to time, as
he went on sucking, the baby raised his long, curly eyelashes and peeped at his
mother with wet eyes, that looked black in the twilight. The nurse had left off
fanning, and was dozing. From above came the peals of the old prince’s voice,
and the chuckle of Katavasov.
“They have
got into talk without me,” thought Kitty, “but still it’s vexing that Kostya’s
out. He’s sure to have gone to the bee-house again. Though it’s a pity he’s
there so often, still I’m glad. It distracts his mind. He’s become altogether
happier and better now than in the spring. He used to be so gloomy and worried
that I felt frightened for him. And how absurd he is!” she whispered, smiling.
She knew
what worried her husband. It was his unbelief. Although, if she had been asked
whether she supposed that in the future life, if he did not believe, he would
be damned, she would have had to admit that he would be damned, his unbelief
did not cause her unhappiness. And she, confessing that for an unbeliever there
can be no salvation, and loving her husband’s soul more than anything in the
world, thought with a smile of his unbelief, and told herself that he was
absurd.
“What does
he keep reading philosophy of some sort for all this year?” she wondered. “If
it’s all written in those books, he can understand them. If it’s all wrong, why
does he read them? He says himself that he would like to believe. Then why is
it he doesn’t believe? Surely from his thinking so much? And he thinks so much
from being solitary. He’s always alone, alone. He can’t talk about it all to
us. I fancy he’ll be glad of these visitors, especially Katavasov. He likes
discussions with them,” she thought, and passed instantly to the consideration
of where it would be more convenient to put Katavasov, to sleep alone or to
share Sergey Ivanovitch’s room. And then an idea suddenly struck her, which
made her shudder and even disturb Mitya, who glanced severely at her. “I do
believe the laundress hasn’t sent the washing yet, and all the best sheets are
in use. If I don’t see to it, Agafea Mihalovna will give Sergey Ivanovitch the
wrong sheets,” and at the very idea of this the blood rushed to Kitty’s face.
“Yes, I
will arrange it,” she decided, and going back to her former thoughts, she
remembered that some spiritual question of importance had been interrupted, and
she began to recall what. “Yes, Kostya, an unbeliever,” she thought again with
a smile.
“Well, an
unbeliever then! Better let him always be one than like Madame Stahl, or what I
tried to be in those days abroad. No, he won’t ever sham anything.”
And a
recent instance of his goodness rose vividly to her mind. A fortnight ago a
penitent letter had come from Stepan Arkadyevitch to Dolly. He besought her to
save his honour, to sell her estate to pay his debts. Dolly was in despair, she
detested her husband, despised him, pitied him, resolved on a separation,
resolved to refuse, but ended by agreeing to sell part of her property. After
that, with an irrepressible smile of tenderness, Kitty recalled her husband’s
shamefaced embarrassment, his repeated awkward efforts to approach the subject,
and how at last, having thought of the one means of helping Dolly without
wounding her pride, he had suggested to Kitty—what had not occurred to her
before—that she should give up her share of the property.
“He an
unbeliever indeed! With his heart, his dread of offending anyone, even a child!
Everything for others, nothing for himself. Sergey Ivanovitch simply considers
it as Kostya’s duty to be his steward. And it’s the same with his sister. Now
Dolly and her children are under his guardianship; all these peasants who come
to him every day, as though he were bound to be at their service.”
“Yes, only
be like your father, only like him,” she said, handing Mitya over to the nurse,
and putting her lips to his cheek.
Chapter 8
Ever
since, by his beloved brother’s deathbed, Levin had first glanced into the
questions of life and death in the light of these new convictions, as he called
them, which had during the period from his twentieth to his thirty-fourth year
imperceptibly replaced his childish and youthful beliefs—he had been stricken
with horror, not so much of death, as of life, without any knowledge of whence,
and why, and how, and what it was. The physical organization, its decay, the
indestructibility of matter, the law of the conservation of energy, evolution,
were the words which usurped the place of his old belief. These words and the
ideas associated with them were very well for intellectual purposes. But for
life they yielded nothing, and Levin felt suddenly like a man who has changed
his warm fur cloak for a muslin garment, and going for the first time into the
frost is immediately convinced, not by reason, but by his whole nature that he
is as good as naked, and that he must infallibly perish miserably.
From that
moment, though he did not distinctly face it, and still went on living as
before, Levin had never lost this sense of terror at his lack of knowledge.
He vaguely
felt, too, that what he called his new convictions were not merely lack of
knowledge, but that they were part of a whole order of ideas, in which no
knowledge of what he needed was possible.
At first,
marriage, with the new joys and duties bound up with it, had completely crowded
out these thoughts. But of late, while he was staying in Moscow after his
wife’s confinement, with nothing to do, the question that clamoured for
solution had more and more often, more and more insistently, haunted Levin’s
mind.
The
question was summed up for him thus: “If I do not accept the answers
Christianity gives to the problems of my life, what answers do I accept?” And
in the whole arsenal of his convictions, so far from finding any satisfactory
answers, he was utterly unable to find anything at all like an answer.
He was in
the position of a man seeking food in toy shops and tool shops.
Instinctively,
unconsciously, with every book, with every conversation, with every man he met,
he was on the lookout for light on these questions and their solution.
What
puzzled and distracted him above everything was that the majority of men of his
age and circle had, like him, exchanged their old beliefs for the same new
convictions, and yet saw nothing to lament in this, and were perfectly
satisfied and serene. So that, apart from the principal question, Levin was
tortured by other questions too. Were these people sincere? he asked himself,
or were they playing a part? or was it that they understood the answers science
gave to these problems in some different, clearer sense than he did? And he
assiduously studied both these men’s opinions and the books which treated of
these scientific explanations.
One fact
he had found out since these questions had engrossed his mind, was that he had
been quite wrong in supposing from the recollections of the circle of his young
days at college, that religion had outlived its day, and that it was now
practically non-existent. All the people nearest to him who were good in their
lives were believers. The old prince, and Lvov, whom he liked so much, and
Sergey Ivanovitch, and all the women believed, and his wife believed as simply
as he had believed in his earliest childhood, and ninety-nine hundredths of the
Russian people, all the working people for whose life he felt the deepest
respect, believed.
Another
fact of which he became convinced, after reading many scientific books, was
that the men who shared his views had no other construction to put on them, and
that they gave no explanation of the questions which he felt he could not live
without answering, but simply ignored their existence and attempted to explain
other questions of no possible interest to him, such as the evolution of
organisms, the materialistic theory of consciousness, and so forth.
Moreover,
during his wife’s confinement, something had happened that seemed extraordinary
to him. He, an unbeliever, had fallen into praying, and at the moment he
prayed, he believed. But that moment had passed, and he could not make his
state of mind at that moment fit into the rest of his life.
He could
not admit that at that moment he knew the truth, and that now he was wrong; for
as soon as he began thinking calmly about it, it all fell to pieces. He could
not admit that he was mistaken then, for his spiritual condition then was
precious to him, and to admit that it was a proof of weakness would have been
to desecrate those moments. He was miserably divided against himself, and
strained all his spiritual forces to the utmost to escape from this condition.
To be continued